Growing up, I was the fragile rose emerging from the crack in the concrete, with my family serving as both the concrete and the crack. Shy and introverted, I desparately desired the approval and acceptance of others, while keeping my vast universe of perceptions, passions, fears and wounds locked away deep within my quiet little soul.
A sentimental sap in every regard, I fell in love with love very early. Well, I fell in love with the “idea” of love anyway. For me, it never turned out to be quite what I imagined, but my guess is that is how it is for many people. We all have pre-conceived notions about love and what it will be like when we experience it. Life, however, can be cruel and quite relentless when it comes to matters of the heart; be it romance, family or simply compassion for others. Over time, I’ve learned to turn to God’s Grace for the strength to pick up and move on when it is time to do so.
So here I am after many years of self-sacrifice, failure and transition. And I know that without all of what I have experienced, I would not be who I am today… someone completely enamored with life and all the wonders of love beyond self. As I seek God’s purpose for my ever-evolving existence, I see a significant shift in my perspective… my passions, fears and wounds; where I’ve been; where I am; where I’m going; and the significance of everyone and every circumstance I encounter… and I’ve learned to embrace it all.
A friend led me to this place – WordPress – and I’ve decided to share some of my past emotional battle-cries, as well as the overflowing hope and love I feel today. Why? Well, I don’t see myself publishing “my book” anytime soon (lol) and, perhaps, some of my expressions can be beneficial, eye-opening or inspiring to someone else… even if all that means is you realize you aren’t alone in what you feel or have felt in your life.
If you’d like to dig a little deeper, here’s a bit more: http://theseekersdungeon.com/2015/05/01/the-gray-in-between-guest-post-nicole-allen/